Mama Said There’d Be Days Like This
It's 9:21 at night and the last thing I really have time to do right now is write a blog post. But I committed myself to writing every day this month, and so I know the only feeling that will be worse than how tired I am right now, is the regret I will feel if I don't keep my promise.
The list is long and there just aren't enough hours in the day. Between housework, travel planning, client work and my volunteer deliverables, I'm switching from one task to another without even taking a breath.
Oh, speaking of breathing, have I mentioned that I had a health scare a week or so ago? At the end of my last period, the water weight I normally retain, didn't go away. I had swelling in my feet that lasted about five days longer than it should. I have high blood pressure and cardiovasular problems as it is, so it was so surprise that I felt "off." It wasn't serious enough that I felt I needed to go to urgent care. Instead, I opted to write my doctor and see what he thought.
As it happens, (thankfully) the day I wrote him I the swelling was gone, and I was feeling back to 90% my normal self. Still, as a precaution he prescribed me a low dose diuretic and said to schedule an appointment with him at my earliest convenience. Of course I will.
It's easy to get caught up in the fast pace of life. To make your health, and taking care of yourself period, a lower priority than everything else that is on your list for the day. But as I've been reminded, sooner or later, that behavior will catch up with you. I can't tell you how relieved I am that I am feeling better. It's been a sobering experience though. I had life-threatening health issues 20 years ago. I don't want to revist those days. Yet I know as I get older, my health will become more fragile to the aging process. And because of my disability, the options to treat what would otherwise be "normal" aging conditions, will for me, be a much higher risk.
So that is the race against time I am always running. I think it is a factor rooted in my thoughts about patience, which I wrote about in a recent blog post. I want to get everything done now because I'm not sure what tomorrow will bring. I know that is true for everyone. There is no crystal ball of certainty to life. But for me, whatever certainty I do see for my future is something that I don't take for granted.
No matter how busy my days get.